Founding member of Christian rock group Everyday Sunday, Trey Pearson, has vigorously studied the Bible and is married with two children. He also grew up in a conservative household
On paper, Pearson is living a pretty typical life for a Christian male. But in a recent letter to his fans he revealed that not everything is as it seems.
The 35-year-old stunned fans across the world earlier this week, admitting he’s been attracted to men since he was a teen:
“To make an extremely long story short, I have come to be able to admit to myself, and to my family, that I am gay.”
The letter, which was first posted on the Religious News Service’s website on May 31st, explains that he was always taught that sexuality was a matter of “choice” and that he “never wanted to be gay”:
“I was scared of what God would think and what all of these people I loved would think about me; so it never was an option for me. I have been suppressing these attractions and feelings since adolescence. I’ve tried my whole life to be straight. I married a girl, and I even have two beautiful little kids. My daughter, Liv, is six and my son, Beckham, is two.
I had always romanticized the idea of falling in love with a woman; and having a family had always been my dream. In many ways, that dream has come true. But I have also come to realize a lot of time has passed in my life pushing away, blocking out and not dealing with real feelings going on inside of me.
I have tried not to be gay for more than 20 years of my life. I found so much comfort as a teen in 1 Samuel 18-20 and the intimacy of Jonathan and David. I thought and hoped that such male intimacy could fulfill that void I felt in my desire for male companionship. I always thought if I could find these intimate friendships, then that would be enough.”
Divulging intimate secrets from his wedding night, Pearson confesses he had never “made out” with a girl before that night after his nuptials nearly 8 years ago. As he tried to be heterosexual, he says he only desired for intimacy in friendship that much more.
